[tw: manic depression & mention of self injury]
Without wanting to sound like a cliche, here’s a little background to my ink: I got it when I was 18 in order to celebrate the positive choices I was making in my life. I have Manic Depression (Bipolar) and the onset of it began when I was around 14/15. With it came the crippling bouts of suicide ideation, mixed episodes, self harm, substance abuse, and of course, low self worth. I’m finally in a place where I can say I’m on the road to recovery, making positive decisions and attempting to stay healthy in both body and mind. I’m medicated, able to allow myself the happiness I find in some days and work through the bad days. It’s an ongoing struggle not many can relate to and this quote is from a poem I love that helped me through the dark phases.
'A Lighthouse of Words', by Charles Bukowski.
your life is your life
don’t let it be clubbed into dank submission.
be on the watch.
there are ways out.
there is a light somewhere.
it may not be much light but
it beats the darkness.
be on the watch.
the gods will offer you chances.
you can’t beat death but
you can beat death in life, sometimes.
and the more often you learn to do it,
the more light there will be.
your life is your life.
know it while you have it.
you are marvelous
the gods wait to delight
“That I might have God again, that I might know him, that I might make him my own. That I might pull him into my center and grow the magic bean of him in my belly. I have sprouted a God head, I have birthed a fire. I am lifting him toward heaven, lifting his broken spine and backward arms up to the clouds. A million birds peck him apart, flying him in every direction all at once so that everywhere all the babies are full of God and the God in my belly issues forth into a golden age of Gods, so full the universe is of us, Gods every one.”